And He went a little beyond them, and fell on His face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.” Matt. 26:39 NASB
Have you ever felt that way? Has there ever been a moment in your life where you just simply Did. Not. Want. To. Do. what you have to do? When you truly and honestly cried out to God and begged, “anything but this God?” Have you ever gotten to the point where “why” never even crosses your mind only, “Please, no, not this?”
Has the thing you are facing been so difficult that despite it being outside your body, your own body ached with pain over it? Have you been physically unable to move? Have you simply fallen down and cried, your prayer coming out like Hannah’s, your mouth moving but no sound? Has it gone so far that you trust that God will know what you are saying because the words just aren’t enough to describe to Him your anguish?
God knows. He knows and understands. He’s been there. Christ came and lived this life. He lived in this sinful world and knows exactly what we are feeling. He is not a God who stands and simply watches, He participated. He not only sees our pain, He feels it as well.
When our grief is too much, when we cannot stand on our own, when our burdens weigh us down and there is no one to help us lift them, He knows. And, for that, I am thankful.