Rules: Write for five minutes, no editing, etc. But I’m sort of cheating this week. I have a lot of Scripture to put in so I went a little longer.
When you have spent time in abuse, any time it seems, your thoughts become distorted. You start to lose you identity. The longer you are in it, the less you recognize yourself. If you remain in it too long, you lose yourself completely. I tell my ex that what my parents were never successful at, namely completely destroying all of me, he was able to finish for them.
The most important thing to do when you leave is to find who you are. If you are a Christian, and were in an abusive relationship with someone who claimed to be a Christian, this is beyond important. Your view of God has been twisted. In many cases, in your mind, He has become the enemy. The longer you’ve been in a religious abusive relationship, the more likely it is that your idea of who God is and how He feels about you are interwoven with the words and actions of your abusers(s).
But that is not God.
It was when I spent that last year of my marriage in the Gospels that I finally began to see God for who He is. And what I found was not a God who delighted in my suffering, who was out to get me and make me miserable, who demanded that I stay with a person who hated me so much it really didn’t bother him that I was suicidal. I found a God who loved (John 3:16) and wasn’t looking to condemn me (John 3:17).
Here’s what God says about you:
New creation 2 Cor 5:17
Chosen race, royal priesthood, holy nation, His possession 1 Pet 2:9His workmanship, created for good works Eph 2:10
Uncondemned Rom 8:1
Child of God John 1:12
The Righteousness of God 2 Cor 5:21
Your body is now the temple of the Holy Spirit 1 Cor 6:19
Friends of Christ John 15:15