Suffering Purpose

I’d really love to leave it there. Pavese nails it. There is no purpose. But many demand explanations, even to the most obvious of facts. As an evolved species, one of the “skills” we have honed is our need to know and understand. This need for understanding, this quest for knowledge, is what created religion,…

Modern Organization

Ah, the good old days when organizing my closets and cabinets was my goal and, really, once those were organized it was just a matter of putting things in their place to maintain. *cough* Once I had kids I had to add not just their stuff but eventually their school papers. I’m pretty sure half…

T-Minus Less Than 3 Weeks

I have about 2.5 weeks before school begins. Since I registered for classes it’s been more or less an up and down experience. Most of that flux is probably directly related to my PTSD, so I’ve been trying to find ways to overcome that. Right after I registered I panicked when I realized I didn’t…

Thought after SLO

Three years ago I made my first trip to SLO. During this trip I threw up my final Hail Mary to save my marriage…I just had to be positive, but different from the positive I'd been the previous 20 years. Yeah, that was it. So I bought my domain name and tried really hard to…

In the beginning God created…death

Most religions these days try to convey that their god is a loving god. Christians, in fact, are vehement about how theirs is the most loving god. After all, he loved the world so much that he tortured and murdered his own son. And we all take it on face value that this is love….