The most important thing I’ve learned in managing PTSD is that idleness will kill you. I imagine that normal people can have a school break of two weeks and sit around bingeing James Bond movies, but it’s the worst thing to do when being still clears the mind of everything except everything bad.
I was surprised by this after I quit my job and had a month off before school started. I thought I’d learned but I still froze up during winter break. So it really comes down to the other lesson learned, the one that school has taught me…I am capable of accomplishing amazing shit. I don’t think I had really grasped that before this last term. I don’t think I had really grasped that before this last month.
So, I have my list, which includes very little idleness. And I cringe when my friends tell me they’re mostly going to sleep their break away. I’m not kidding guys, it really would make me nuts…well, more nuts than I already am. 😉