Life Moves On

It does. There really is nothing to do but move along with it. I had a conference for work this weekend. I signed up for it back when I felt better, invincible even. I nearly called off but didn't want to use the PTSD as an excuse. So, off I went to Riverside City College. … Continue reading Life Moves On

Take Away

It’s so different now. I watch people who are like I was before the PTSD took over my mind and I cringe. I don’t begrudge them, I just hate myself for ever being like that, for ever trusting that deeply, for ever allowing myself that much freedom. It was weird to be in a place … Continue reading Take Away

Self

Just got home from meeting with my Calc professor. I feel no better or worse now. I really do feel as numb as I ever have. If I can get admissions to sign off the papers tomorrow, well, I don’t want to talk about it. Everyone keeps saying that I need to do what’s best … Continue reading Self

Inspiration

Yet again, I read one of those pep talk memes that came across my Twitter feed that just made me even more depressed. It spoke of sharing your story so that you can serve as an inspiration. Yeah, uh, nope. Years ago, Michael Jordan drew the ire of pretty much everyone on the planet for … Continue reading Inspiration