Writing and PTSD

I've been trying to write, but nothing comes out. It's difficult to explain how my mind is working right now. It's rather nonsensical. I care, but I don't. How does one explain that? I do have a theory as to why, however. Why my brain cares, but then it immediately doesn't. It's directly related to … Continue reading Writing and PTSD


I was looking through some old notes for a story I wrote a while back when I came across a quote I had written down a week before I started school back in the summer of 2017. It's a quote from some guy names Brendon Bruchard. I have no idea who this is, except he … Continue reading Forward

Out There

There is a reason depressed people never want to leave the house. Interacting with the real world is hard work. The little I've done today has left me drained. It's been a rough day. I was at about 50% when I got an email about my admissions issue and then I was pretty much at … Continue reading Out There

Life Moves On

It does. There really is nothing to do but move along with it. I had a conference for work this weekend. I signed up for it back when I felt better, invincible even. I nearly called off but didn't want to use the PTSD as an excuse. So, off I went to Riverside City College. … Continue reading Life Moves On


Just got home from meeting with my Calc professor. I feel no better or worse now. I really do feel as numb as I ever have. If I can get admissions to sign off the papers tomorrow, well, I don’t want to talk about it. Everyone keeps saying that I need to do what’s best … Continue reading Self


Subtitled: Keep it to yourself. We have always lived in a culture that adores positivity. Despite what religious folk would like us to think, religion itself is built on this idea. "Don't worry so much about this life, think about the heaven that is to come." Religion 101. But positivity is bullshit. I say that, … Continue reading Positivity


Funny thing happened. Right after I joked about making #selfcaresaturday a trend. I happened upon this. So here are my pics for the first day: Yes, these were all taken at school, but it still counts. 😛 Join me tomorrow when I will attempt to convince you that pumpkin spice everything is healthy af.